No more

He said he jealous coz I talk to other boys. I stopped talking to them. Even with my own bestfriend.

Even if he couldnt see it, I stopped talking to them. They all curious why I suddenly become unfriendly.

I did that coz I want our relationship to be stronger. He can trust me and I can trust him.

However, he have soo many girl friends. too many. If I can sacrifice and stop talking to even my own bff then why cant him?

I think I just some useless girl that he only wanted when he said so. and throw me away when he doesnt want me anymore.

Its hurt.

Even how much its bleeding inside, he cant know about it.

Its because I love him I dont want him to know the pain that I bear inside.

I had cry for soo many days until my nose bleed.

And yes, its bleeding. Its hurts on the outside and in the inside.

What I can say now is, if he doesn't want me anymore then I have to walk away from his life.

There is no more reason for me to cling on him.

Now, I just have to wait for his "end" word for me.

Then I will slowly take my step away from him.

And when that days comes I will end the chapter of my life.