Monday, 31 October 2011

Wish upon a star.

Once upon a time. 
There was a little girl who wishes upon a falling star. She said that "God, please let me have a good friend and a good dream that I can dream."

She was a crybaby that did not have a proper life as a normal little kid since her family always move. She never stay in one place more than 1 year. She always have to said goodbye to her friends and never been able to meet them again. Her life became tough when she did not get along very well with her family.

Eventhough, she had a happy day with her family but she never know what is the feeling to be surrounded by friends.

After a few years, the little girl has grown up. She had forgotten her wishes when she was a child. One day, when she went to a family vacation. Late night, she was so bored. She took her laptop and go down to the hotel lobby. There, she open a website call 'youtube'.

She just randomly searching for her favorite song. Then suddenly she come across this video. She was surprised that many people had done a dance cover for her favorite song. Not knowing why. Her heart skip a beat.

Since that day, she has been dreaming of dancing to her favorite song. So she ask her friend opinion. Her friend had encourage her to make a dance video. Few weeks later, 6 of her dance video come up on the youtube. She was surprised by the people reaction.

She had been received a warm welcome on the youtube. A smile appear on her face. A smile that has not been seen for such a long time.

After a year, she suddenly have many fans all around the world. But she does not want to call them as fans. She rather call them as FRIENDS. Since she does not have many friends, she really happy to see many people that support her from all over the world.

But then, something terrible happen. There is something that hold her back from dancing. That year had been a tough year for her. She had cried, smile and cried again. What makes the matter worse is that her very own friends, which had been with her for half of her life back-stab her. But at that time, she does not want to say anything and just be friend with her.

She felt all alone. Very lonely that she just lock herself in her room. 

Few days later, she learn that she is not alone after all. Her classmate had been supported her all this days. Since then they had been a good friends.

After the tough year, its time for her to further her study in college. Things are not going well there. Her dancing becomes a problem again. After a long and hard days, she decided to delete her youtube. 

At that very moment, she had been crying for the whole week. She cry, cry and cry. Nothing can make her heart feels better. But since that day, she hardly cry.

After few months, she got back home for her semester break. Suddenly she got accepted into a University. She had no choice but to go and further her study there. She does not want to disobey her family.

When she got into the university, she sees a chance to revive back her youtube. She make a decision to make a new youtube. Eventhough many people had found her back but she also lost most of her friend in the youtube.

She is trying hard to make herself shine like she used to be one years ago. Many things happen to her. During her days to recover herself, she learn a very important things. FRIENDS are the most precious things a person had.

But at then time she realize that, it was too late. She was already 19. She look back behind her. All she could see is a dark path. Not even her shadow is willing to be with her. She regrets that she does not have many friends. She blame her family for always moving and live in a strict life.

She never had a chance to go out and have fun with her friends for 17 years. She can only go out when she was 18 but that was too late because the school had end and she had to move to new place. 

One day, on her everyday life, she was listening to her favorite song. There was a lyrics that make her realize something. Something important that she could not see for all this time.

Once again, she try to look back. Suddenly the dark path had dissapear. There was her shadow there. She smile.But what makes her smile is not because of her shadow, but she can finally see that actually there was many people that was willing to support her when she fall. There was a tears in her eyes. 

She never knew that she can cry again. 

She try to stay strong so that all of her friend would be happy. She did not want to see her friends to get hurts just because she was not strong enough.

She had become much stronger when she got a new friends from Philipines. It was another reason for her to stay smile everyday.

She try so hard to live a happy life, smile everyday evethough its hurt, laughing eventhough she is dying inside. All of that just because of her friends.

Even now, she still look at the sky and wishes upon a falling star. But this time her wishes had change.

"God, please make all my friends life shining with light. Make them always smile and taste the sweets of chocolates. And.. please, please makes OUR dreams come true."

She now realize, life is not just about her. But its about all the people around her. And yes, that girl is ME.

Thursday, 27 October 2011

Just me!! ^^

okay so I decided to change my hairstyle. Plus my hair really need to be treated. lol xD
so here I am with my straight hair. hahaa



I hope this style go well with me. ^-^

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Friendship


From my 19 years  experience through friendship, I had to say that I have a lot of different things that I had experienced.
From an honest friendship to the most unwanted friendship. (lolz)
But yeah, I had been stabbed behind my back and betrayed by friends. Just name it, all of it I had experienced it.
So starting at my age 18, I started to build a "wall". A wall that I dont want anybody to cross it. And becoz of that wall, I had been categorized as ignorant girl just becoz I dont want to talk to people and get involved with anyone.
Well, all I can say is, I dont want to get hurt anymore. To be honest. The climax to my life is when I was 17 years old. There is soo many things going on at the same year that time.
and yeah, it also the start of my 'wall'. 

But hey, I'm cured now. I had destroyed the wall after I met and incredible friend. One of them is when she's still with me at my climax of life. We both survive together and now we are still friend! How cool is that?? hehee

After I get back with her, I think my life had got even better. Plus, this year I met another great girl which is one if my roomate now. She also teach me and survive with me everyday.

Yeah, now I had this two special girl. But it doesnt stop there. 
Now I had like soo many friends around me. Im soo extremely happy and excited. 

Thnx to these two girls I managed to destroyed that wall and become the me where I left few years ago!! I will always love you two.


One last advice that I can say is. In order to get your happiness, sometimes we must let go of something
Remember that every 'Goodbye' will always have a new 'Hello'. 


Wednesday, 5 October 2011

The Truth!

All this time, I have been envying people who taking dance class, language class or music class. Well I cant take any of them. Reasons??
I don't even know.

Maybe I can say that my mom dont really want me to learn music. She said its not a good thing to be involved in entertainment area. But I know that she still support me.

Now I have to move on my own. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to take dance class!! whenever I see dance studio or watching a celebrity performing in televison, I will keep thinking "It would be awesome if I can be just like that" but then there would be a hammer or a chainsaw hitting me and wake me up from that dream.

Sometimes, I cried when I know I cant be standing on a stage. Im have too many things that I lack to be just like the performers. I have no attitude, voice or beauty.

But then, I will slap myself and said "Hey, at least I meet wonderful people on YouTube!".

So yeah, performing on stage or not, as long as Im with the one that I love, I will be just fine.

Dream will always be hold in my hand, just a matter of time I need to let it go. When that days come, I know I will have the courage to let it go while smilling. ^-^

Monday, 3 October 2011

Life




Just because life is hard doesnt mean that you can't go with it.
Every hard things that occur in your life will result in the sweetest things ever.
If you dare to take the challenge then you will have the most fantastic live you ever wish to have.

Trust me, coz I know that feelings. ^^