Sometimes I keep wondering to myself. Is people are using me for their comfort?? or they just need me to finish their assignment? or maybe just used me to cover their evil thingy?
These type of question cant be answer by me. but I wish people be friend with me just because who I am.
I hate the facts that when I need them they are gone.
Dear friends,
Please remember that God will always be here to see what you doing. Please do not make things that can make me pray for your unhappiness.
Love,
Me.
Wednesday, 21 December 2011
Sunday, 4 December 2011
My day~ :D
Since the day that my last post, I had been living my life just right.
My life just keeps getting better and better.
But I also did not forget that I can fall down in any moment.
While that moment still hasnt come, lets just put on a smile and live life full of CHOCOLATE!! ^-^
My life just keeps getting better and better.
But I also did not forget that I can fall down in any moment.
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Button. Dont push that!
Do you know what is 'button' means?
Well, I had this one books call Do not push the BUTTON. If I'm not mistaken, they was saying said that a red button is something related to someone anger. When somebody had push push our button, means that our anger had come to the limit. We will explode and do things that are not supposed to be. (correct me if I'm wrong.)
Do you know that if you can't control your own button something bad will happen?
Well you can't really see what happen coz its invisible. Whenever someone push your buttons, you will not become you anymore. You will say things that are not meant to. Do something out of your imagination. And something like that.
Learn to control your own button so that people would not see you like that.
Sometimes, we can also let out our side that are not meant to be known. Such we depressed of our own life. We always think that our life is SUCKS! MY FAMILY SUCKS. MY FRIENDS SUCKS. MY LIFE SUCKS.
Dont simply said 'give up' just because you did not try harder.
Dont simply said 'Im useless' just because people didnt see your talent.
Dont simply said 'Im not pretty' just because other people are much prettier.
Do not compare your life with other people. Their journey is different than us. They maybe suffer less than us but to them its feels like hell. Learn your own journey of life and just try to enjoy it.
It maybe full of pain, wounds everywhere, bleeding inside your heart BUT do not forget that you are lucky enough that you can still breath, walk, dance and sing like normal people.
Learn to appreciate and other people will appreciate you too.
Well, I had this one books call Do not push the BUTTON. If I'm not mistaken, they was saying said that a red button is something related to someone anger. When somebody had push push our button, means that our anger had come to the limit. We will explode and do things that are not supposed to be. (correct me if I'm wrong.)
Do you know that if you can't control your own button something bad will happen?
Well you can't really see what happen coz its invisible. Whenever someone push your buttons, you will not become you anymore. You will say things that are not meant to. Do something out of your imagination. And something like that.
To some people, A person who let go of his or her button and let other people see it they eventually looks stupid.
Learn to control your own button so that people would not see you like that.
Sometimes, we can also let out our side that are not meant to be known. Such we depressed of our own life. We always think that our life is SUCKS! MY FAMILY SUCKS. MY FRIENDS SUCKS. MY LIFE SUCKS.
Well let me tell you something.
Dont simply said 'Im useless' just because people didnt see your talent.
Dont simply said 'Im not pretty' just because other people are much prettier.
Do not compare your life with other people. Their journey is different than us. They maybe suffer less than us but to them its feels like hell. Learn your own journey of life and just try to enjoy it.
It maybe full of pain, wounds everywhere, bleeding inside your heart BUT do not forget that you are lucky enough that you can still breath, walk, dance and sing like normal people.
Some people they cant even do that.
Learn to appreciate and other people will appreciate you too.
Remember, everyone had their own journey. Yours is different than your friends/family. That is what makes everyone unique.
PEACE!!! ^^
Monday, 31 October 2011
Wish upon a star.
Once upon a time.
There was a little girl who wishes upon a falling star. She said that "God, please let me have a good friend and a good dream that I can dream."
She was a crybaby that did not have a proper life as a normal little kid since her family always move. She never stay in one place more than 1 year. She always have to said goodbye to her friends and never been able to meet them again. Her life became tough when she did not get along very well with her family.
Eventhough, she had a happy day with her family but she never know what is the feeling to be surrounded by friends.
After a few years, the little girl has grown up. She had forgotten her wishes when she was a child. One day, when she went to a family vacation. Late night, she was so bored. She took her laptop and go down to the hotel lobby. There, she open a website call 'youtube'.
She just randomly searching for her favorite song. Then suddenly she come across this video. She was surprised that many people had done a dance cover for her favorite song. Not knowing why. Her heart skip a beat.
Since that day, she has been dreaming of dancing to her favorite song. So she ask her friend opinion. Her friend had encourage her to make a dance video. Few weeks later, 6 of her dance video come up on the youtube. She was surprised by the people reaction.
She had been received a warm welcome on the youtube. A smile appear on her face. A smile that has not been seen for such a long time.
After a year, she suddenly have many fans all around the world. But she does not want to call them as fans. She rather call them as FRIENDS. Since she does not have many friends, she really happy to see many people that support her from all over the world.
But then, something terrible happen. There is something that hold her back from dancing. That year had been a tough year for her. She had cried, smile and cried again. What makes the matter worse is that her very own friends, which had been with her for half of her life back-stab her. But at that time, she does not want to say anything and just be friend with her.
She felt all alone. Very lonely that she just lock herself in her room.
Few days later, she learn that she is not alone after all. Her classmate had been supported her all this days. Since then they had been a good friends.
After the tough year, its time for her to further her study in college. Things are not going well there. Her dancing becomes a problem again. After a long and hard days, she decided to delete her youtube.
At that very moment, she had been crying for the whole week. She cry, cry and cry. Nothing can make her heart feels better. But since that day, she hardly cry.
After few months, she got back home for her semester break. Suddenly she got accepted into a University. She had no choice but to go and further her study there. She does not want to disobey her family.
When she got into the university, she sees a chance to revive back her youtube. She make a decision to make a new youtube. Eventhough many people had found her back but she also lost most of her friend in the youtube.
She is trying hard to make herself shine like she used to be one years ago. Many things happen to her. During her days to recover herself, she learn a very important things. FRIENDS are the most precious things a person had.
But at then time she realize that, it was too late. She was already 19. She look back behind her. All she could see is a dark path. Not even her shadow is willing to be with her. She regrets that she does not have many friends. She blame her family for always moving and live in a strict life.
She never had a chance to go out and have fun with her friends for 17 years. She can only go out when she was 18 but that was too late because the school had end and she had to move to new place.
One day, on her everyday life, she was listening to her favorite song. There was a lyrics that make her realize something. Something important that she could not see for all this time.
Once again, she try to look back. Suddenly the dark path had dissapear. There was her shadow there. She smile.But what makes her smile is not because of her shadow, but she can finally see that actually there was many people that was willing to support her when she fall. There was a tears in her eyes.
She never knew that she can cry again.
She try to stay strong so that all of her friend would be happy. She did not want to see her friends to get hurts just because she was not strong enough.
She had become much stronger when she got a new friends from Philipines. It was another reason for her to stay smile everyday.
She try so hard to live a happy life, smile everyday evethough its hurt, laughing eventhough she is dying inside. All of that just because of her friends.
Even now, she still look at the sky and wishes upon a falling star. But this time her wishes had change.
She now realize, life is not just about her. But its about all the people around her. And yes, that girl is ME.
There was a little girl who wishes upon a falling star. She said that "God, please let me have a good friend and a good dream that I can dream."
She was a crybaby that did not have a proper life as a normal little kid since her family always move. She never stay in one place more than 1 year. She always have to said goodbye to her friends and never been able to meet them again. Her life became tough when she did not get along very well with her family.
Eventhough, she had a happy day with her family but she never know what is the feeling to be surrounded by friends.
After a few years, the little girl has grown up. She had forgotten her wishes when she was a child. One day, when she went to a family vacation. Late night, she was so bored. She took her laptop and go down to the hotel lobby. There, she open a website call 'youtube'.
She just randomly searching for her favorite song. Then suddenly she come across this video. She was surprised that many people had done a dance cover for her favorite song. Not knowing why. Her heart skip a beat.
Since that day, she has been dreaming of dancing to her favorite song. So she ask her friend opinion. Her friend had encourage her to make a dance video. Few weeks later, 6 of her dance video come up on the youtube. She was surprised by the people reaction.
She had been received a warm welcome on the youtube. A smile appear on her face. A smile that has not been seen for such a long time.
After a year, she suddenly have many fans all around the world. But she does not want to call them as fans. She rather call them as FRIENDS. Since she does not have many friends, she really happy to see many people that support her from all over the world.
But then, something terrible happen. There is something that hold her back from dancing. That year had been a tough year for her. She had cried, smile and cried again. What makes the matter worse is that her very own friends, which had been with her for half of her life back-stab her. But at that time, she does not want to say anything and just be friend with her.
Few days later, she learn that she is not alone after all. Her classmate had been supported her all this days. Since then they had been a good friends.
After the tough year, its time for her to further her study in college. Things are not going well there. Her dancing becomes a problem again. After a long and hard days, she decided to delete her youtube.
At that very moment, she had been crying for the whole week. She cry, cry and cry. Nothing can make her heart feels better. But since that day, she hardly cry.
After few months, she got back home for her semester break. Suddenly she got accepted into a University. She had no choice but to go and further her study there. She does not want to disobey her family.
When she got into the university, she sees a chance to revive back her youtube. She make a decision to make a new youtube. Eventhough many people had found her back but she also lost most of her friend in the youtube.
She is trying hard to make herself shine like she used to be one years ago. Many things happen to her. During her days to recover herself, she learn a very important things. FRIENDS are the most precious things a person had.
But at then time she realize that, it was too late. She was already 19. She look back behind her. All she could see is a dark path. Not even her shadow is willing to be with her. She regrets that she does not have many friends. She blame her family for always moving and live in a strict life.
She never had a chance to go out and have fun with her friends for 17 years. She can only go out when she was 18 but that was too late because the school had end and she had to move to new place.
One day, on her everyday life, she was listening to her favorite song. There was a lyrics that make her realize something. Something important that she could not see for all this time.
Once again, she try to look back. Suddenly the dark path had dissapear. There was her shadow there. She smile.But what makes her smile is not because of her shadow, but she can finally see that actually there was many people that was willing to support her when she fall. There was a tears in her eyes.
She try to stay strong so that all of her friend would be happy. She did not want to see her friends to get hurts just because she was not strong enough.
She had become much stronger when she got a new friends from Philipines. It was another reason for her to stay smile everyday.
She try so hard to live a happy life, smile everyday evethough its hurt, laughing eventhough she is dying inside. All of that just because of her friends.
Even now, she still look at the sky and wishes upon a falling star. But this time her wishes had change.
"God, please make all my friends life shining with light. Make them always smile and taste the sweets of chocolates. And.. please, please makes OUR dreams come true."
She now realize, life is not just about her. But its about all the people around her. And yes, that girl is ME.
Thursday, 27 October 2011
Just me!! ^^
okay so I decided to change my hairstyle. Plus my hair really need to be treated. lol xD
so here I am with my straight hair. hahaa
I hope this style go well with me. ^-^
Tuesday, 11 October 2011
Friendship
From my 19 years experience through friendship, I had to say that I have a lot of different things that I had experienced.
From an honest friendship to the most unwanted friendship. (lolz)
But yeah, I had been stabbed behind my back and betrayed by friends. Just name it, all of it I had experienced it.
So starting at my age 18, I started to build a "wall". A wall that I dont want anybody to cross it. And becoz of that wall, I had been categorized as ignorant girl just becoz I dont want to talk to people and get involved with anyone.
Well, all I can say is, I dont want to get hurt anymore. To be honest. The climax to my life is when I was 17 years old. There is soo many things going on at the same year that time.
and yeah, it also the start of my 'wall'.
But hey, I'm cured now. I had destroyed the wall after I met and incredible friend. One of them is when she's still with me at my climax of life. We both survive together and now we are still friend! How cool is that?? hehee
After I get back with her, I think my life had got even better. Plus, this year I met another great girl which is one if my roomate now. She also teach me and survive with me everyday.
Yeah, now I had this two special girl. But it doesnt stop there.
Now I had like soo many friends around me. Im soo extremely happy and excited.
Thnx to these two girls I managed to destroyed that wall and become the me where I left few years ago!! I will always love you two.
One last advice that I can say is. In order to get your happiness, sometimes we must let go of something
Remember that every 'Goodbye' will always have a new 'Hello'.
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
The Truth!
All this time, I have been envying people who taking dance class, language class or music class. Well I cant take any of them. Reasons??
I don't even know.
Maybe I can say that my mom dont really want me to learn music. She said its not a good thing to be involved in entertainment area. But I know that she still support me.
Now I have to move on my own. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to take dance class!! whenever I see dance studio or watching a celebrity performing in televison, I will keep thinking "It would be awesome if I can be just like that" but then there would be a hammer or a chainsaw hitting me and wake me up from that dream.
Sometimes, I cried when I know I cant be standing on a stage. Im have too many things that I lack to be just like the performers. I have no attitude, voice or beauty.
But then, I will slap myself and said "Hey, at least I meet wonderful people on YouTube!".
So yeah, performing on stage or not, as long as Im with the one that I love, I will be just fine.
Dream will always be hold in my hand, just a matter of time I need to let it go. When that days come, I know I will have the courage to let it go while smilling. ^-^
Monday, 3 October 2011
Life
Just because life is hard doesnt mean that you can't go with it.
Every hard things that occur in your life will result in the sweetest things ever.
If you dare to take the challenge then you will have the most fantastic live you ever wish to have.
Trust me, coz I know that feelings. ^^
Saturday, 17 September 2011
A sIgN??
yesterday, I dream of something beautiful.
I was on the stage and dancing until I cant anymore. I prove to everyone that dancing is my thing.
But it is just a dream. Just when I thought I loose my DREAM, it come on my REAL DREAM. How weird is that? Is this a sign that I shouldnt give up just yet?? I should take a BIG STEP towards my dream?
Is it??
Or.. that is just a DREAM??
no one knows.
Thursday, 15 September 2011
Real Story
Few days ago, I had make a one BIG DECISION in my life. I had ended my 12 years of friendship with my BFF. its not like I REALLY ENDED IT. I think we both need some space before we can be friend again. I know its my fault. But for me to make this HUGE decision take a lots of courage. I hope she can understand that.
Maybe few years later we can meet up and smile like we use to be? who knows.
The picture describe how exactly I'm feeling now.
Maybe few years later we can meet up and smile like we use to be? who knows.
The picture describe how exactly I'm feeling now.
Tuesday, 13 September 2011
Wheel of Life
Karma. everyone know about this.
I think this year 'karma' words always come out form my mouth. Now I know what is the REAL meaning behind this words.
I can see how people around me change from bad to good, good to bad and bad to worse. People always says things that they didnt mean it. People also always think they are the right one. Do you know that just by saying these kind of words you can make your life miserable?
I always see how my friends talk behind others. but at the end they are the one who being nice with them. Well we dont know what are inside people's mind rite?
we can only see what they are doing with their own life.
have you ever done this?? :: sitting at the very back. unnoticed by other people. listen to your mp3 and observe all the people infront of you. ::
if you ever done that. you must have seen how they fall and get back on their feet. and the most important things is you can learn from their mistake.
PEACE!!!
Monday, 12 September 2011
TODAY!!! ^^
B1A4 - beautiful target teaser~~~
sooooooooooooooo B1A4 will hhave a comeback on 16th september!! yeayy~~ they said that they will post it online.cant wait to see that. from the teaser we can see that their concept are still the same. cute and funky~ LOL at sandeul! hes a dentist but wear shorts..hahhaa XD
anyways, BANA's lets keep on fangirling on them!!!! >.<
sooooooooooooooo B1A4 will hhave a comeback on 16th september!! yeayy~~ they said that they will post it online.cant wait to see that. from the teaser we can see that their concept are still the same. cute and funky~ LOL at sandeul! hes a dentist but wear shorts..hahhaa XD
anyways, BANA's lets keep on fangirling on them!!!! >.<
Saturday, 3 September 2011
O.O freaky....
waaa so today i went to penang and come home around 10 pm. i was sooo shocked when i saw my house got broke into by someone. my house has been turn up side down.. okay it is freaky.. my family lost around rm100 somthing.luckly we didnt lost anything much precious. i mean my laptop was there and my dads laptop. thank god they didnt take it!
anyways, we was lucky it was okay. THANK GOD!!! ^-^
anyways, we was lucky it was okay. THANK GOD!!! ^-^
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
OMG U-KISSS NEVERLAND~~~ XD
they are getting better and better each days! i've been following them since their first debut and i can see that they are trying hard everytime they release a single. i hope this one can make their name shine better than ever! hehee
their dance looks sharp and catchy. omo im sooo loving this song~~ lalalalaaa~~~~
*well i do miss xander and kibummie tho.. T-T
here some of their new pics~~ ^o^
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Thursday, 21 July 2011
New Vid!!!
as you guys can see, I'm back on youtube~~ yeayyy~~ hahaa
the new song from Mblaq - Mona Lisa
I really LOVE this song. The dance are good too! I mean the dance step not my dance.. =.="
anyway, I'm soo happy that I can do dance vid back~ awww I'm sooo missing my old days when every single days I can upload new dance vid. T-T
hahaa its sound that I'm soo OLD...... XP
WHEN I'M TIRED DOING MY VIDEO...THIS IS WHAT I DO~~ ^O^
Smile!!!! (the blue thingy is my bro small fan LOL)
Duck mouth???!!!
Nice Smile~~
Wednesday, 20 July 2011
. . .
its 4 a.m. and I cant sleep! well I guess there is a reason why I didnt close this beautiful eyes yet. LOL XD
words really is EVERYTHING ! ^-^
I'm kinda happy now. and I think I had gain my spirit back.
words really is EVERYTHING ! ^-^
Move On With Ur Life Babe!!!!!
srsly, I need to move on!!!!
OMG plz let my past go away.it's hurt like HELL when I remember back my past. I dont want too. but it keeps coming back. IF I have a time machine. I wanna go back to where it started. I want to FIX everything back.
Everytime I see their picture, I regret of what I did to them. I know I sound crazy here. but hey everyone deserve to be crazy sometimes rite?
To tell you the truth. I'm missing them. I wanna hug them. Now that I loose them. I dont think I can get back what I wanted.
Before anyone says this to you. I'm telling you to cherish whoever is beside you now. Dont you ever tell them you HATES them. coz once this TABOO words come out of your mouth. It will never returns back. I know coz I said that. Not once, but many.
If you think I'm bad. Then let it be. Everyone is not perfect. and all I can say is, when you said it, you will get it back. when you get it, you will be hurt LIKE CRAZY. not even any medicine can heal your wounds. it will never be gone. the wounds will turn into scars and after that YOU WILL SUFFER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
OMG plz let my past go away.it's hurt like HELL when I remember back my past. I dont want too. but it keeps coming back. IF I have a time machine. I wanna go back to where it started. I want to FIX everything back.
Everytime I see their picture, I regret of what I did to them. I know I sound crazy here. but hey everyone deserve to be crazy sometimes rite?
To tell you the truth. I'm missing them. I wanna hug them. Now that I loose them. I dont think I can get back what I wanted.
Before anyone says this to you. I'm telling you to cherish whoever is beside you now. Dont you ever tell them you HATES them. coz once this TABOO words come out of your mouth. It will never returns back. I know coz I said that. Not once, but many.
If you think I'm bad. Then let it be. Everyone is not perfect. and all I can say is, when you said it, you will get it back. when you get it, you will be hurt LIKE CRAZY. not even any medicine can heal your wounds. it will never be gone. the wounds will turn into scars and after that YOU WILL SUFFER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
1st ! !
안녕하세요!(hello/assalammuaikum)
today is my 1st writting a blog. I mean not the first but my last blog...I forget my password..so this is the new one! Hurray~~....?? XD
anyways, what I'm going to write now is bout my own life. I am happy with my life. I have mostly of what I wanted.
but what exactly that I can't have is the right attitude. Most people said that if you don't like someone then just ignore them. But when I did that, they will said I'm stupid for doing that. After that I come to realize that if we hates someone doesn't means that we have to SPEAK IT OUT LOUD. It's unfair to do that. All the precious memory that we had with friends/family have to be reconsider before saying YOU HATES THEM.
That's exactly what I learnt in my life.
It's based on my life experience. You can trust me! ^-^
HAVE A HAPPY LIFE GUYS!! ^O^
today is my 1st writting a blog. I mean not the first but my last blog...I forget my password..so this is the new one! Hurray~~....?? XD
anyways, what I'm going to write now is bout my own life. I am happy with my life. I have mostly of what I wanted.
but what exactly that I can't have is the right attitude. Most people said that if you don't like someone then just ignore them. But when I did that, they will said I'm stupid for doing that. After that I come to realize that if we hates someone doesn't means that we have to SPEAK IT OUT LOUD. It's unfair to do that. All the precious memory that we had with friends/family have to be reconsider before saying YOU HATES THEM.
That's exactly what I learnt in my life.
It's based on my life experience. You can trust me! ^-^
HAVE A HAPPY LIFE GUYS!! ^O^
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